Thursday, April 23, 2009

November 22 - April 22

Well, we have officially been married 6 months! Man! That was a short six months! God is so amazing. He's blessed us beyond what we deserve. Thank you, Jesus. Thank you for your grace!
Tomorrow we are going to Baton Rouge to chaperone a trip for the high school. I am especially looking forward to going to the mall tomorrow night. Matt and I usually enjoy shopping together. He needs some brown flipflops and I need.. well, I just want.. maybe a new dress, some capris on sale somewhere, a swimsuit cover-up to go with my new target two-piece.. Excuse me, my new TAAUURGETTT two-peice. What I am especially NOT looking forward to is riding a school bus all the way there and back. Who tha heck am I gonna sit with? MRS. MURDOUGH?? MY HIGH SCHOOL ENGLISH TEACHER??? LOL.. what a funny situation. Anyway, Matt and I are just happy we dont have to pay for our hotel, food, or gas. Not to mention the couple hundred dollars that goes in our pocket for chaperoning!!

Anyway, have a good weekend everyone!
~ Mrs. Coach Herring

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

It's Been 2 Months

It's been 2 months since your death. Spring isnt the same with out you. Life isnt the same without you.
I dont know where Poppa's head is at. I apologize for his behaviors. I wish I could keep him in the shape you kept him in. But I cant.
Lauren and I talk about you alot. About how much we miss our nanny. We need to go to your grave. We need to bring you fresh flowers. You liked Daffodils. And yellow roses. I made sure your casket bouquet was exactly the way you would have wanted it. You would have been delighted.
Easter was on Sunday. At church they sang the song that they sang the night you came to church with us after finding out about the cancer. It was difficult to hear it. Remember? The one about victory? It made me think of how blessed your were that night. You looked so free, so peaceful. I miss you. I was thinking last night of how you used to sing Jesus Loves Me to us. I remember your voice. I remember the way you sing. I miss it.
I heard this song on the radio last night about saying goodbye and it made me cry. I was so tempted to dive my head into the bag of clothes that I have of yours that I havent touched since the week you went to be with Jesus. I know your smell is in that bag. I wanted to smell you, but I knew better. I knew that if I did that, I would cry and cry and cry over the fact that you arent here anymore, that I can only smell your clothes and that I cant smell you. The bag was in my car for a long time before I could even get it out to bring in the house. Yesterday I found one of your hairs in my car. It was too much for me to handle. I had to push my emotions away.
I want to tell you so much about me and Matthew. I want to talk to you about things in our marriage thatI have no one to talk about them to. I want your wisdom and knowledge throughout my marriage and I dont have it. It isnt fair. So much has happened for me to tell you about.
I miss you!
Happy Two Month Anniversary of being with our Jesus! I hope you are having the best time... I know you are!
I love you, Nanny.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Go Dodgers!

Yesterday was the openning day for the LA Dodgers.
Now, I wasnt much of a baseball fan before Matt and I started dating, but after watching every single game last summer... and learning SO MUCH information about the Dodgers and the game of baseball, I have to admit that it's growing on me. We switched to Dish Network a few weeks ago without knowing that this year they arent offering the baseball packages. And Matthew got his days mixed up so the first game of the year snuck up on us yesterday like there was no tomorrow! We ended up going to watch the game at his aunts house on her internet, because we havent added ours to our account yet. And THANK GOODNESS the game ended with the Dodgers leading by 3! WE ARE UNDEFEATED!!! lol... and expecting for another win tonight!
Now, Matts birthday is coming up next Friday. And as much of a Dogders fan as he is, he only has one Dodgers shirt and one Dodgers cap. So, as part of his birthday present I am going to buy him another shirt..maybe a few more Dodgers items. He'll love it!
Well, try to stay warm on this cold April day!
Until Tomorrow,
~ Mrs. Coach Herring

Monday, April 6, 2009

Our Weekend

We had a lovely weekend! Friday night we went to Crawfish City! Then we went to Wal Mart and bought Madagascar II. Saturday, we slept in until 9 and then worked in our flowerbeds unitl it was time to go to Matt's cousin's birthday party. We satyed there thru lunch and then went home.

On Saturday afternoon we watched our new movie and then went to eat dinner at McAllister's. I had a sandwich that made me sick that night. After we ate dinner we went to Big Lots (one of our favorite places to go together).. Most of our date nights involve Big Lots in on way or another. Matt bought some new sunglasses!! YAY!! (I really didnt like his old ones) Here's a pic of his old ones:

Well, after Big Lots we went home and watched a little TV and the went to bed.

Sunday we didnt go to church because I had gotten sick. So, all we did yesterday was lie around and relax. It was SOOO awesome. I feel so rejuvenated. It was great!

Happy Monday!

~ Mrs. Coach Herring

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

I Miss You Unbearably

Sometimes when I think of you, I feel as though it's happened all over again. The pain is so deep and the hurt is so real and it feels like I heard it for the first time again. Last night seemed to be one of the hardest since the day you met Jesus. I couldn't stop thinking of you. I was longing for your touch, smell, your arms that wrapped around me whenever I needed them to. I longed for your smile and your laugh. I longed for your wisdom and insight. There isn't a day that passes when I don't pick up the phone to tell you something or share a story with you or just hear your comforting voice that no one can replace. For some reason I cant get it in my head that I cant call you anymore. There are so many things I want to tell you, say to you, hear your opinion on. So much change has happened that you havent had your say in.. and most of it you wouldnt allow to happen. So many things that you would stand up and put a stop to. Ha.. I wish I could be as mean as you could be to those who deserved it. I wish I knew what you would say to that woman so I could say it for you. I miss you so much. One of the hardest things I have found is going to your house, going to nana's house, and knowing that I wont see you when I arrive...knowing that you wont be there... knowing that when I drive up I wont see you standing in the window looking for me and I wont feel your arms embrace me just after walking through the door. It hurts so much to know you arent available anymore, to know I dont have you anymore... Ive lost my hero, my counselor, my safe place and my nanny. The hurt is so indescribable i am lost for words when asking God for help. Thank goodness I know that He already knows my need despite what I say or dont say to Him. And because of you, I know that He is the only One who can meet my need. Ive learned so much from you... our family feels lost without you. The adjustment is slow. The adjustment is hard. Its awkward, and we arent used to it and it makes me mad that things are happening that shouldnt be happening and if you were just here, it would fix everything. I hate not being able to talk to you anymore! If there was one wish I had it would be to make it possible to call Heaven and talk to you. Its crazy how much it makes a difference the way you feel about Heaven when you have someone there that you love so dearly. I want to be with you. I want to be next to you. I want to be in your company again. And I cant wait til the day when I see you again. I miss you so much. I miss you unbearably.